Posted by bookgurl99 on January 29, 2003, at 0:29:02
I ran into an ex-partner of mine recently. We were together for a little under two years, but it was an intense, short relationship and I was deeply in love. We moved in together around the same time that I developed OCD symptoms.
The relationship fell apart largely due to my mental health problems -- she couldn't deal with it, actually discouraged me from getting help at the time. By the time I got it and was well, she had fallen out of love with me. So she left me. The breakup was about 3 years ago.
I just ran into my ex today. There is still this stab-like pain when I see her. It really bothers me, because in all other respects I have moved on with my life.
Maybe part of it is that the rejection was due to a mental illness that I had no control over at the time, and I feel shame over that. Plus, in almost every other previous breakup, _I_ had been the one to make the choices to split.
But I want to not feel this way. I'd like to be able to even just exchange words with this ex-partner. But right now I can't.
I can't explain this feeling. Does anyone else go through this? Have you ever felt this way? How do you deal with an ex who rejected you?
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