Posted by coral on November 27, 2002, at 10:44:17
In reply to Re: sudden sadness, posted by Eddie Sylvano on November 27, 2002, at 9:17:48
" . . . Actually, I'm almost paranoid about possible indicators that I'm getting depressed again. It's such a weird head game. I'm always worried that whatever I say or think or listen to might jeapordize my fleeting happiness. Like I have to always think happy thoughts and avoid sad movies, etc. I'm really afraid of letting myself cry about anything since, well, that's how it started. I'm probably off base about this, but I just can't go through that again."
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I can appreciate what you're saying. After climbing out of the cave, I was extremely cautious about exposing myself to anything that might bring about those god-awful feelings -- certain television shows, music, movies, etc. In my case, though, not expressing my feelings was partly what got me in trouble in the first place, so one of my spots to watch is making sure I'm identifying my true, heart of hearts, feelings and express them (even if it's in a journal.) My path has included learning authenicity of my emotions.
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