Posted by GeekUKII on November 22, 2002, at 20:34:42
In reply to Re: FYI : drunken ramblings, real drunken :) » GeekUKII, posted by dreamerz on November 22, 2002, at 20:14:15
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> It does go on and for years the memories will intrude till you don't know if it happened or not-what is real..Yeah damn right!
> It's a horrible natural way of the mind trying to sort itself out like a hard disc defraging all the mess.
> I cannot advise on the drink..but I used it to block out my past also.. meds are healthier-?i hope so drink is too expensive
-I don't know...but meds seem to have helped me more than the grog...takes away the dark seedy ambience.
But I am dark and seedy!
> If we could choose our parents eh.
I wouldnt have know you.
> Eventually the hate does turn to indifference and you do move on..but little things spark off somethings ...like a bad dream(I wake myself up shouting :-)..or listening to news etc..but it fades (maybe that's the meds working)
often I dream of killing my father/mother, There a putic, yeah a putic
> The biplor thing..sometimes it's hard to think is it nature or nurture..makes it complicated
> I don't know about your past but all I can say is
> I almost turned into my mother-well partially I could never become that evil..let the past rott in a stagnant landscape until the top soil falls, cause it will..Totally, I know about you a bit, does not mean they need to be us. My main aim not to be my dad, hell I am drunk so I am doing well yeah? yeah right.
> Sorry for the tangents -I've just woken up.
> ~sweetness~
> I don't envy your hangover : )
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