Posted by Peter S. on November 22, 2002, at 13:19:36
In reply to Re: I hate being mellow!, posted by bookgurl99 on November 22, 2002, at 7:09:06
I totally sympathize with where your coming from. It must be endlessly frustrating- I know it is for me. What is the worst is this cycling. For the last 3 days I have felt great and today Bam! back here in the darkness. One minute I have no energy and think I should just get a job which is completely introverted, and the next I feel extroverted and know that I love and want to work with people and have a lot of energy to do this.Well I'm thinking of going to a Buddhist monastery. This life in the Western world is killing me. (I'm only partially kidding)
> I'm sorry about the job interview; at least they were honest with you. Now you know you can develop survival skills in that area. (BTW, my partner is the exec. director of a small nonprofit and it is draining work, long hours with a _lot_ of politics. )
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> I used to be very ebullient, popular, and outspoken. Now, because of thyroid disorder (slow thyroid), sometimes I just have the energy to get through my 8 hours in my cubicle and go home and lie down. People don't know the true me anymore.
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> Sometimes I think depression can cause the same thing; no energy to do anything, and a tendency to avoid social situations because of the drain.
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> I also deal with ocd, which -- because it makes me really think about things -- makes me come off as hyper-intellectual. I am described as being an intellectual often, when I feel that I'm not really.
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> Both of these conditions have held me back in work and school.
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