Posted by Penny on March 28, 2002, at 13:19:03
In reply to Re: I'm falling apart...................... ¯ Penny, posted by fi on March 28, 2002, at 7:27:22
> And the one about wanting to be a doctor. I know it may sound trite- sorry- but have you thought a bit wider? Medical school is packed with a vast amount of studying, including lots of science, and a load of stress.
Fi,
Yeah, I've considered other fields: clinical social work, psychology, nursing, etc. I know med school would be extremely challenging...that's what attracts me to it, in some ways. And perhaps it's a bit too extreme for me, though I don't feel ready to give up just yet. Still holding out hope that I'll get stabilized on some meds soon and then I can pick up where I left off.
> Then there's loads of things you can do to help others as a volunteer, which you can do straight away once your mood has stabilised, like befriending or helping with practical tasks.I already volunteer. I mentor a nine-year-old boy who lives at a treatment facility for kids with severe emotional and behavioral problems. He and I both take Celexa right now :). And I'm on a committee at the same facility. And I'm a part-time nanny for a two- and a four-year-old, in addition to my normal 40 hour a week desk job. And I sit for other kids too. Plus class too nights a week...jeez, am I just TOO busy? Is that part of my problem? Probably... And my volunteering is rewarding (as is the babysitting), but all through college, when I was fooling myself about thinking I could survive a desk job, I thought that the volunteering would be enough to feed my soul. Not so, for me. I have to be doing more.
But, you see, I was a parental child (as I'm sure many of us were), and I feel a need to be taking care of someone/thing all the time. I have two dogs for that very purpose, plus the volunteering with kids and the babysitting help fill that need. But it's not enough. And I guess I see medicine as being the ultimate in caregiving...at least the way I would want to practice it. But, perhaps that's not such a good thing...
Anyway, thanks for your thoughts. I'm still hangin' in here...
Penny
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