Posted by Cecilia on January 9, 2002, at 23:59:40
In reply to Re: taking a break from your therapist?, posted by Lini on January 9, 2002, at 16:00:22
> thank you cmcdougall, JohnDoenut (funny) and Mair. Glad to know that therapy vacation isn't necessarily a sign of impending neurochemical disaster. i definitely am going to take the time to re-identify my goals.
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> Now, this "best patient" and "money" thing are indeed my issues. Am I really the only person who feels weird about paying someone fifty bucks to cry for an hour? It's not that I don't consider therapy a service, therapy just seems similar to being a really good friend to a person, makes me wonder if I should be writing checks to my bestfriend as well? :)
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> And, no one else wants to be a good patient? I must be a freak, cause my nightmare would be finding out that my therapist would rather eat mud than sit through a session with me.
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> okay, okay, re-reading this, I DO have issues!Believe me, Lini, you are definitely not alone with the money and best patient issues. I know therapists have to earn a living like everyone else, but it still feels like paying someone to care or pretend to. And on our last session my ex-therapist made it clear that she would indeed rather eat mud than sit through a session with me, her exact words were "I dread these sessions, it`s the hardest work I do all week." I paid forty thousand dollars over 7 years to be hurt like that. For 7 years, therapy was basically my life, I arranged my work schedule around it, paid about a quarter of my take home pay on it, obsessed continually about what I would say or had said in therapy, how I could get the little jewels of reward I lived for (namely, getting my therapist to say something, howerver minor, about herself) worried continually about what my therapist was thinking about me, whether she was going to abandon me etc. And it was all fake and all came to a crashing halt in one session.
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