Posted by Dinah on December 8, 2001, at 8:47:18
In reply to dissociation, posted by Katey on December 7, 2001, at 23:06:08
I also have a way of processing memories that causes me to feel disconnected. I break down every experience into its component parts. The picture memory of the actual event is filed haphazardly away and not in chronological order so I have a poor sense of time as a continuum.
The emotions associated with the memory are stripped off and dumped in the large containers of "anger" or "sadness" or "shame" so that they can spill out unexpectedly when the "anger" or "sadness" or "shame" door gets opened. Also, this causes me to recount past events without feeling or expressing any of the emotions associated with them.
The sense of who I am at the time of the remembered event is separated from the both the event & the emotion and filed in such a way that I can only access it when I am in a similar mood state. This causes me to have a very poor sense of who I am.
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