Posted by Gracie2 on October 20, 2001, at 22:45:02
I have been sober for nearly 2 years and pretty responsible with the pills, but I blew all that last night. I feel like a total failure. Went to a friend of mine (also in the med field) and asked if she had anything for a terrible hangover. She gave me a handful of new pills called Ultracet, and I almost began to weep. Ultracet is acetaminophen and tramadol,
(Ultram), a drug that I've been abusing on and off for years, (my friend doesn't know this) and although I've been clean for a couple of months now, I could not make myself return the pills to her because I just felt so awful. Now I just feel guilty and angry for being so weak.
Hangover or not, I usually feel less than wonderful most of the time. It's no wonder - I'm sure my poor body is saturated with toxins.
A couple of weeks ago I was at the bookstore and found a book with a regimen of food, vitamins and herbs designed exclusively for the detoxification of alcoholics and addicts. I didn't have enough money to buy the book and couldn't find it when I returned to the bookstore later. I know I should have asked a salesperson, but I couldn't bring myself to approach her and say, "I need that book for junkies and drunks!"
And of course, I don't remember the name of the author or title of the book. Sometimes I'm in a complete fog.If someone should run into said book, I would be ever so greatful if you wrote down the name for me. I feel a real need to do penance for my latest relapse.
Thanks again-
Gracie
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