Posted by NikkiT2 on October 19, 2001, at 12:03:47
In reply to Re: Precipitating suicide? » Jane D, posted by paxvox on October 19, 2001, at 7:52:11
This post has made me realise something...
I;m NOT suicidal!!!
I have felt suicidal for the longest time, and I really don;t know what kept me here. Most of the time it was just a realisation that i didn;t want to be here, and would, as some point, kill myself. About once a week it would boil over into really wanting to do it, but luckily I never quite made it the whole way.
Some days it would just get blcker and blacker until I lost all hope. Slowly, like a thick black oil slowly covering me.
Other days something would trigger me over the edge, something pathetic like forgetting to buy the newpaper, or my husband nagging me slightly.For years, I just knew I would die. Now I am being given the chance to find a reason to hang onto.
Nikki
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