Posted by sar on October 14, 2001, at 22:16:21
In reply to Re: mixed state or lack of discipline?-Sar, posted by Krazy Kat on October 13, 2001, at 9:50:58
> Are you afraid of feeling better? I have been in the past...yes. i'm terrified of feeling better. feeling better means that i'll have to be a fully functioning human being instead of being a drunk sponging off my parents. feeling better will entail some form of mediocrity...a small apartment, a low-paying job, finishing school, fighting the masses for a job i don't really want anyway. i'm really comfortable with sadness, it's my baby-momma, i don't know any other way. i don't think i've ever truly felt good...
> You Have to up the Neurontin if you're staying on it like Wendy says - it only stays in your system for 4 to 6 hours.
yes, i agree. i can't feel a difference anymore. i swallow these horsepills 3 times daily and i can't say its made a difference.
> And I have to say that Depakote has been a pretty good med for me. The only lingering side effect after about two months for me has been a slight tremor in my hands. It is noticable, but I really do feel better. I know if I'd just cut out drinking completely, it would work really well.
no hair loss/weight gain? in what way do you feel better? can you describe how you feel?my hands used to shake out of pure anxiety! i would mind slight trembling...how much are you drinking nowadays?
> I know I sound like an old maid (I'm thirty) but you sound So much like me when I was younger. (And still).
you don't sound like an old maid, you've always sounded like a tough cookie! do you think it's the Texas water? :) what do you do for a living, etc?
love,
sar
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