Posted by sar on September 9, 2001, at 1:08:21
In reply to Hey sar....., posted by Kristi on September 9, 2001, at 0:50:04
hey kristi,
i've had 4 or 5 smokes in the past 2-3 weeks. i've stopped buying herbals, am on step 2 of the patch, and alternate my nicorette with regular gum
today i had my first sharp craving in quite awhile--cruising down the highway windows down after my dinner-break from work, great music on, had just seen my mom for the first time in a few weeks (mixed feelings), had eaten fabulously--but my gum, klonopin, and work-business made it okay.
how are *you* doing? you're not allowed any nicotine, right? so no patch or gum? i imagine you're going through a much tougher time than me, plus you smoked longer than i did! shit, girl, i'm feelin for you.
do you feel cleaner in any way? the other day i spoke with a co-worker after he'd just had a smoke, and he stunk! i mean it didn't bother me, i just knew that i didn't want to smell like that.
faces, faces. what keeps pushing me most are the women in the sixties i run across with their cigarette-voices and leathery faces...i wanna age as gracefully as possible! so i tell myself, if you're going to drink like this, you can't smoke like that. does the smoke in the casinos disgust you at all? what methods are you currently using to deter yrself from smoking? does the hypnosis still work for you?
my trick: imagine being 65, with all those vertical wrinkles above your lips, and a voice that sounds like a mean robot or a man. be vain! or imagine being 75 and sucking cigs through a hole in your throat.
imagine being an old hag coughing stinking looking like an ashtray.
LET'S QUIT!!!
i want to allow myself the occasional (fine glass of merlot, after great sex, after expensive gourmet meal, after tragedy) but i never want to be pack-a-day again. ever.
have you ever given anything up before? i do beleive that humans can be inherently resolving. in preschool i pledged never to suck my thumb again (and didn't). in grade 2 i pledged to stop chompin on my nails (and spent a summer concentrating on quitting). (i guess i felt lots of guilt even as a kiddo!)
i've heard--correct me if i'm wrong, that it takes 30 days to create a habit, and 90 to break it...we're on the same 2-3 week starter-crux...i know we can do it if we just keep on truckin...
love
sar
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