Posted by kid_A on August 16, 2001, at 19:48:31
In reply to Re: poetry and accidents » kid_A, posted by sar on August 16, 2001, at 12:13:04
> i'm so sorry. what kind of club was it, was this regular dj'ing or electronica?
kind of a mixed thing, w/ electronic stuff some nights and one night of rock (punk/glam etc), that was my night, of course i went berzerk when i got the news, and wound up way-over-drinking and getting high, but by two days latter im happy to say that the same person who put me in there in the first place, re-put me back on a better night... unfortunately it directly competes w/ my friend (who's lagging night it is now)... so there could be some tension there...
> clubs are fairly erratic. i hope you'll not let it get to you too much.
by the next day i was 'disapointed' but okay, ive been involved w/ clubs/bars in some way for a while, though its been a long time since ive had a residency, and even though ive been fired before, it doesnt seem to get easier to loose a dj gig...
>do you have any other job prospects? & you write too, don't you? do you freelance anything? (i respect your writing style bunches. i think you ought to give it a shot, if my opinion is worth anything.)
im a programer by trade, but a freelance designer at heart, im working on a corporate logo / compact disc design concept right now for a mass distribution downtempo cd, so im happy about that... im also planning some artwork of my own, and am in the process of writing a short book of poetry... btw, your opinion means a lot to me...
> i was once a cocktail waitress at a club and was fired for being too "softspoken." i didn't know you could get fired for having a soft voice...
maybe they thought you might be taken advantage of, there are some real jerks at the bar and some of our bartenders get pretty jaded, some are still pretty soft, it all depends on what kind of angle they work... i think some go for the cute-n-cuddley 'please tip me' game...
>i hope you're not taking it too personally.
its a really strange situation, and the person who wanted me there still wants me there, and put me back, the people who really f'd me were some of the bartenders (ones that im not the closest too), because i think they were sick of not making money on mondays, but thats not my fault, i wasnt working there....
> please let us know how you are doing. & please try not to pass out anywhere but home! it's just not safe. you know that, i don't have to tell you, but...hey man, yr too classy to be passing out by cars anyway.
wow! i know, jesus, i dont even know what i was doing, lately ive been handling my alcohol well, but i think its the pot that really kills me if ive got a bit of a buzz on... im going to stay away from that... passing out in a parking garage is not good at all... i try to live a rock n roll life style, but thats way too 'vh1 behind the music' even for me :)
> (i've passed out in a multitude of places--i'm not one to speak--but i am learning--i've made it to my home/bed 100% for the past 6 months or so--yay me!!)
ive been good lately, sometimes when your upset you want to obliterate yourself and what seems like a rational thing (to get really high after youve been drinking beer and done a few shots) is just totally stupid to begin with... hopefully (and i keep saying this), its a lesson ill be able to learn from...
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> what meds are you on, kid?right now, primarily effexor/geodon... i take xanax during the day because the effexor still makes me feel wonky... at night i have been taking ambien, and rarely, remeron, just because it just totally wipes me out...
knock on wood, things are back on track, and im lighting a few candles in thanks... there arent any promises in life, but im just going to try to make the most of what i got...
thanks again for understanding so well...
hearts from space,
-k_A
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