Posted by Anna Laura on July 26, 2001, at 7:16:12
In reply to Re: Does anybody else feel like i do? » Anna Laura, posted by AKC on July 26, 2001, at 6:40:48
> Anna Laura,
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> Oh so recently. In fact, that is what makes what is going on with me seem so much like a miracle (though I am adament right now in not believing in such a thing - it is that little white pill).
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> After three years of constant hell, I reached a point in May that I just couldn't keep going on. I had no reason to - if it was just going to keep being the same, what was the point? I started pestering my therapist with that question. What was the point? What was the point with getting up each day? I had a job. Big deal. I had a couple of friends. Big deal. I had a home. Big deal. Nothing mattered anymore. If all I was going to show for it was constant emotional pain, I just couldn't keep doing it.
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> I hope for you the effexor works (which is part of my cocktail, and has helped me for the most part with my depression, even though I did sink into a bad one in May - there was a lot that led to that, including my ingestion of alcohol for the first time in three years).
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> I would love to pass on to you the strength to hold on for a little while longer - I would hope that for you the miracle will be just around the corner. That this awful period you are going through will give you a break. I don't know how long mine will last. But everyone deserves one - I got mine - you deserve yours - I hope it arrives soon - I hope effexor brings it to you.
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> AKC
Dear AKC,Thanks for answering. I'm going through hell but your post kind of soothed this terrible state of mind.
I'm quitting the previous med cocktail: don't really know if this is withdrawal or it's depression. Feel apathetic up to the point i lay down on the couch doing nothing, can't even watch tv: everything it's such a bore and a day seems to last a century; i feel like i'm trapped in to eternity, and that will always be like that, even after death.
Accomplish anything it's such an effort! Even talking or moving is an effort. Your post gave me the strenght to type this mail down.
It feels like hell : you have been my air-conditioning inside this hell. I know that it won't last unfortunately, but thanks again AKC.A hug
Anna Laura
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