Posted by JennyR on June 26, 2001, at 10:00:28
I was once a little late for a therapy appointment, so upon arrival, I bumped into someone leaving who I recognized. She seemed to not notice me. But I frequently see her at the other place I know her from, and feel like I hate her, because she shares my therapist. I feel ridiculous to feel this way, like a jealous child. Now people who know her happen to have told me things about her life. So now I feel badly for hating her becasue she's had her share of problems, but then I also picture my therapist being all kind and sympathetic to her, and I get very jealous. Like a little kid. And I even get a little mad, in my own head, at my therapist, who has done absolutely nothing wrong. Obviously he cannot survive seeing just me, obviously he sees many other people. But when they were anonymous people I didn't care.
I feel like a stupid baby for feeling all this. But when I'm with my therapist it feels great, the rapport is so wonderful, that I hate to picture him being that way to her or other people. It feels like he's cheating on me. I guess it's because the nature of the therapeutic relationship fosters feelings of closeness and intimacy, and in real life people you are close and intimate aren't going around being that way with a lot of other people. But emotionally, I struggle with this even though I know it is irrational. Anyone have similar experiences or thoughts on this?
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