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Re: lost and found (mikes)

Posted by mikes on May 10, 2001, at 11:36:50

In reply to lost and found (mikes), posted by mila on May 9, 2001, at 23:22:35

Thank you. I hope you have a full remission.

I thought I was just having a bad reaction to the ssri's, since i had been on them for 4 weeks, and was still having really bad side effects and bad (much worse than normal) days. Maybe I should have stuck with it for longer. I couldn't stand the feelings I got on them though. How long did it take for the side effects to go away? By emotional functioning do you mean that your emotions are not flattened?

So I stopped, and now I'm trying GHB for depression. So far I'm having good results. I would prefer a more serotonergic antidepressant effect though. I may try the SSRIs at some point in the future to try to get that effect, but not right now. I have other problems with the SSRIs. The highs I get from marijuana and other drugs are severely diminished or non existant on SSRIs (SJW and 5-HTP as well). I would hope that I wouldn't feel the need to use drugs if my depression were cured, but I don't have the will to try to get to that point right now. GHB does however seem to work pretty well even when I'm on SSRIs. So I think my plan is to use GHB for now. If it doesn't work out, which I'm guessing it won't totally, I'll start an SSRI while using GHB. Then I will taper off the GHB, or combine it with the SSRI if it seems to be helping.


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> Hi, mikes,
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> i understand you very well, every word rings so true.
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> when i saw a doc for depression, she said, 'there is little we can do', when i saw a psychiatric nurse for an interview, she said, 'help is almost unavailable', when i saw a psychiatrist, she said, 'psychopharmacology is art, not science'. get out of here!, i thought...This was probably the most depressing part of my depressive illness.
>
> i stayed on SSRI's for several months mostly because i believed they were helping, me, although you would never guessed it if you saw me on them. The side effects were bad, and they definitely brought my IQ somewhere way below the average; horrendously slowed down mental processing and recall. This made my university studies next to impossible. I was dropping courses like an autumn apple tree drops its apples.
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> I was lucky to discover in the end that the meds were working silently on the background and i am feeling very well now. never tried drugs, mostly because I am scared shitless after witnessing my father's early demise from alcoholism.
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> SJW I tried, but it was no good for depression ( I gave it a 3 months try), although nice for anxiety.
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> Now I am feeling great. Healthy. 'Undepressed' as you say. I wonder whether it is a full cure, or remission, but then does it really matter? what matters is that NOW i feel great, and my intellect is back along with nice emotional functioning. I just finished my school year at university with 96% average, and cannot tell you how happy I am, given my life-long hatred of learning, and aversion to memorization and discipline, it is something to celebrate :) now, because I have dropped so many courses during first term because of SSRIs, I hae to go to summer university, to make up for what I need as prerequisites for next year. It will be very tough, especially given the fact that all the courses to take are simply HIDEOUS. I keep my fingers crossed and i hope i will make it.
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> good luck on your quest, mikes. depression is the nastiest disease of all I ever had. so deceitful, so hard to get it by the throat, and when you did, to squeeze the last breath out of it. Persevere.
>
> love
> mila


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