Posted by mikes on May 9, 2001, at 22:14:43
In reply to Re: mikes, posted by mila on May 7, 2001, at 22:41:31
When I was doing some heavy ev. psych. thinking a couple years ago, I eventually came to connclusion that the only thing I should try to do in life is have fun, thus the chronic euphoria. I'm not getting into the exact reasoning. I didn't want to be stupid necessarily; it was more that I didn't care whether or not I was smart or stupid. I decided that I had done all the thinking I ever wanted to do; any more "smart" thinking just got repetitive and annoying.
No, if I had achieved it, I wouldn't be on this forum. Psychiatric medicine is too primitive to help me reach my goals. My brain chemistry prevents me from reaching them by illegal means. I guess I have become stupid. Actually, I know I have, at least somewhat. I was much smarter when I was depressed. I haven't been as depressed for about a year now. Plus I have used quite a few drugs; the licit ones really do seem to be the intelligence-killers (st. john's, 5-htp, zoloft). What is next? Trying to get undepressed.
> === all I ever wanted was to be stupid and chronically euphoric.
> 1) why? what looks so attractive to you in stupidity ? in chronic euphoria? (*shudder*)
> 2) have you achieved your goal? if not, why? if yes, what's next on the list?
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