Posted by Lisa Simpson on April 14, 2001, at 10:22:53
In reply to blacking out, posted by sar on April 7, 2001, at 0:51:30
Hi Sar, thanks for your reply.
I'm still drinking, I'm afraid. I try to stop - on Monday, I say this is it, I'm not going to drink, but the trouble is my other half doesn't support me. Not that he doesn't want me to stop drinking, but he doesn't realise how big the problem is, and he can't be bothered to give me positive encouragement. I need someone to say "well done, you've gone a whole day without a drink" and give me a pat on the back. Then I know I could do it. But no-one cares one way or another, so I think, what the hell, I might as well have a drink. And so it continues. I know it sounds childish and silly, but if there was someone there just to praise me and give me the odd hug after a successful day of non-drinking, that would really help.
I have had seizures in the past, which the doctors could find no reason for. But if I'm honest, I'm pretty sure the drink is responsible for this. The most frightening thing about all this is that I lose my memory. In the morning, I can't remember anything about the night before. Although, like you say, I can hold my drink pretty well, and my other half doesn't know when I've put half a bottle away. I'm quite good at hiding it. And hiding bottles... sigh.
Dreadful, isn't it. You have my utmost sympathy. I have been thinking about going to AA, but that would mean admitting to my other half that I'm an alcoholic, and I don't think I could do that. He nags me about everything as it is, without giving him a weapon like this! Anyway, sorry to bore your socks off. Hope everything is going well with you at the moment.
Best regards
Lisa
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