Posted by mila on April 13, 2001, at 0:26:58
In reply to Re: friends you thought you had » smylin, posted by Todd on April 12, 2001, at 22:54:00
hi Smylin,
i can tell you how it feels from othe side. I happen to be the one who found it impossible to relate to the person who told me that she was clinically depressed. She is very charming and outgoing generally and I couldn't get enough of her. Once she told me about her struggle with depression she suddenly transformed herself into a writhing ball of pain. The gap that I glanced into was so deep, dark, and extraordinary we both got petrified. I guess we both became stupefied after witnessing the limits of human experience. It is hard to be on the edge, you know. Somewhere in the middle, where normality, or at least the pretense at normality lies is easier for us. That is why i never tell my friends about my depression. Third of them shuts down, third ignores what I say, for they do not know what i mean, and the rest start to treat me as if there was something wrong with me, in a 'nursing', mothering fashion. I have yet to find a friend who would see me with my condition as a person who faces a rather normal and common challenge in life. But hey, I do not lose any hopes. I am still young, and keep finding new friends all the time. People are wonderful to be with.
love
mila
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