Posted by NikkiT2 on January 30, 2001, at 14:24:12
In reply to Re: Damned pdoc.... » NikkiT2, posted by judy1 on January 30, 2001, at 12:25:38
Not much chance of changing pdocs I'm afraid... Can't afforsd to pay for one, and the NHS is pretty useless. I'd have to go back on the waiting list to find another one (my only other local one is current ones boss!!), which would be about 4 months. 4 months with no pdoc seems a bit scary.
As for self harm.. erm... well... dunno whether I would actually shove a knife in my head, but I am getting back into the scratching my arms with needles to try and control this feeling. I have too much something in me, but I can't put into words what it is. Like I want to pull and rip and scratch and scream. Angry, frustrated, pissed off, and (this is worrying me) - I feel very violent. I'm kind of managing to channel this into on line arguemnts... but... well, what if that ends up not enough??
Oooh... microwaves gone ping!!!
N xx
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