Posted by Cass on January 19, 2001, at 18:33:12
In reply to Re: My Greatest Fear, posted by Janice1 on January 16, 2001, at 17:40:25
My greatest irrational fear:
That I could become evil. (All of my parents, whole and step, were capable of unconscienable, psychopathic behavior. So I have a fear that since I am their "seed", I must have that capacity. Rationally, I know I'm not evil. I'm not hurting anyone, and I have a therapist who would tell if I were going down the wrong path. It's just a horrible cloud that hangs over me.)
Another fear:
Like SLS, that I will die without having lived. More specifically, without having lived up to my potential, contributed to the world or made use of my talents. I haven't lived a great deal, although I have dealt with profoundly disturbing issues and situations, and throughout, I have generally maintained my integrity.Another fear:
Physical pain. I have endured a great deal of physical pain, and I know that it truly depletes life of joy and any reason to live. If a person has not lived with chronic pain, they really don't understand.
These are the fears that pop into my head as the very deepest ones. Perhaps it's good to get them out.
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