Posted by shar on January 16, 2001, at 11:34:18
In reply to My Greatest Fear, posted by SLS on January 15, 2001, at 21:08:57
Scott,
This issue has come up for me lately. At 49 I think I'm getting a sense of my own mortality, and do not want to spend the rest of my years the way I spent the earlier years. I want to experience more glimpses of awe and joy.Even when I am really in a depression, there are things that will catch my attention, like nature. I can stand for a long time watching bees landing on flowers for honey, or watching the trails ants make (ever notice they aren't all over the place? they follow their trail) and how some ants will walk right over others and nobody gets hurt. The moon is always a good object d'stare.
I don't expect unremitting joy, I do intend to do more of the things that bring me moments of pleasure or peace or contentment. I should probably qualify that a bit to say "when I am able" because, honestly, there are times when it is too black to see. I guess it's a matter of doing what we can when we can.
I am sure you have some pleasure-bringers too. And don't forget the healing power of humor. I wish you well finding the good stuff in your years to come (even if it is only moments of good stuff).
Take care -- Shar
> I am not so scared of dying as I am of never having lived.
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