Posted by Noa on January 18, 2001, at 16:00:38
In reply to Re: I am 19 years old, posted by julesvox on January 18, 2001, at 10:36:45
Dennis,
For 19 yo, you are quite astute to have developed this insight.
That feeling of powerlessness is so painful. I can understand feeling like it helps to feel there is a way out.
But what is important to think about is that the stuck feeling you are having, and the depression it is causing, causes cognitive constriction---makes it hard for you to see that there might be SEVERAL viable ways to solve the problem of feel trapped and powerless, not just the one way.
It sounds to me like you need help to get through this crisis, and perhaps medication could help to counter the cognitive constriction effects of the depression, and then some counseling to help you figure out ways to feel more power in your life, to feel you have more options to choose from.
You DON'T have to buy into the "script" that you feel others have written for your life as an adult--you CAN decide on a way to live life that you can believe in. Counseling can help you to figure this out.
But please get help now because even though your suicidal urges are a way to help you feel some sense of options in a situation of feeling trapped, the risk is that you will act on them, and I don't think it is what you want, deep down, that what you do want is relief from the feeling that your life offers you no options that you find viable, appealing.
poster:Noa
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