Posted by dennis on January 17, 2001, at 22:42:27
Sometimes when I get really depressed and anxiety the only thing that keeps me from going crazy is knowing that I always have the option to kill myself. This option provides me with tremendous relief from my pain. This has been going on like a cycle, I slowly get depressed to the point where I think about suicide which gives me relief to know I am not trapped here and then the cycle repeats, as I said in my earlier post I think its my lack of options, lack of freedom, the oppresion that causes my depression to a large extent, you know I have seen peoples lives, they work 40 hours a week doing shit they dont like doing, they never have enough money, and there life just goes right down the towlet, cities are basicly work camps where there are slaves and there are masters, and all the slaves are just doing what they have to do to survive and waiting to die, while the few people in the world who are lucky enough to have money actually get to live and be free, but anyway I am addicted to this board now so your just gonna have to put up with the crap I write, but if you have anything to say about suicidal thoughts providing me relief and whether or not thats healthy then you know what to do.
If you get a chance listen to John Lennon's song Imagine, if you dont have it get it on napster.
poster:dennis
thread:4033
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