Posted by CarolynAnn on January 15, 2001, at 19:19:38
Well, seems like here it comes again! I guess I just need to vent, and to know I'm not alone. Inside I'm anxious/scared/sad. I'm scared of heading into the darkness yet again. And I seem to take it out on mostly one person I'm usually very close to at work. I just shut down and don't talk all day. And I can't seem to stop. Part of me doesn't even want to try to explain to her that I'm feeling depressed. I guess because I'm hurting I want someone else to hurt too. Of course this doesn't do much for my self esteem. I mean what kind of a person acts/feels like this!? I'm taking medication...and I've certainly felt a lot worse, but I am wondering if there will ever be an end to this. I've spent years and years in therapy, tho not recently, because it didn't really solve anything. Only the medication seems to help. But now I'm wondering if there might be something I've missed...some way I could help myself. Guess I'm feeling a little desperate...and a lot sorry for myself. Excuse the babble!
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thread:3945
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