Posted by Ted on December 6, 2000, at 10:47:25
In reply to Re: Is this the definition of Bi- Polar?, posted by Lexie on December 5, 2000, at 18:47:24
{{{{{Lexie}}}}}
(There -- I did it again, and I will keep it up as long as necessary)
>Thanks for the Hugs.
You are most welcome. We all need them at some time.
>I am not sure what is going on. Everyday is such a struggle. I was doing so well.
Can you say "Christmas" (or "Ramadan" or "Hannukah")? It is the stress of the holidays and the changing of the seasons. It affects almost all of us.
>I am thinking of telling my son I am going to visit a friend and instead going in the hospital for a while. I am feeling very unstable.
Do what you have to to stay safe. I (and everyone else, I am sure) will be thinking of you.
>The depression feels like waves crashing into the ocean. When I feel bad I can't lay in the bed or the couch I just lay in the floor, I don't know if that makes any sense to anyone.
I understand. BTDT. There is nothing strange about wanting to lay on the floor. There were times in the not-too-distant-past that I preferred the floor of a closet. It was dark, calm, peaceful, quiet. Again, do what you have to, stay safe, and don't worry about what other people think. You need to take care of *Lexie* right now.
>I just feel like giving up. I wanted to stop the medication but he seems to just want to keep increasing it (I am taking 400 mgs. of Lamictal and 400 mgs. of Topamax). I think it is time to either end it all or try to get some serious help.
I understand. Everyone with bipolar disorder has been there. Just try your best to hang in there with us until Jan 2 or so. Then I really think you will start to feel better. If you want to change doctors, that is OK, but do so carefully -- the last thing you need right now is additional stress.
Lexie, please keep posting. I will be looking for you.
Ted
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