Posted by laural on October 24, 2000, at 8:48:11
In reply to Re: Shar » coral, posted by shar on October 24, 2000, at 0:15:06
shar--
you deserve more than to just "grin and bear it", you deserve healing, even to the discomfort of others. you do after all pay your doc for things such as this. i have to realize this as sometimes i want my doc to see how much i'm improving that i try to ignore things. perhaps you feel guilty for making "such a fuss", i know i always have when suicidal, i don't feel i'm worth the attention and then part of me says "maybe then they will understand my pain" but that i was too noble to make others suffer along side me. kind of like that guy wandering out into the blizzard on the first trip to the poles when he and his teemmate discovered they would only have enough food for one to make it--he said "I'm going for a walk, I may be a while." maybe going to group like the above people have suggested would be a good idea to simply acclimate to the idea that you're having these thoughts. you may even find some people you really admire and respect that could make yourself relax--as--if they seem accepted, i may also be ok.
there is no need to suffer in silence, people who know you will notice something is not right, even if they never associate it with you
also, living in survival mode for so long can cause elevated levels of adrenaline, which deteriorates your immune system--hence people with depression often get sick easier
laural
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