Posted by shar on October 24, 2000, at 0:15:06
In reply to Re: Shar, posted by coral on October 23, 2000, at 16:38:51
Coral,
What very kind words. Thank you so much for understanding and voicing your support. I am very touched, and thankful.
Shar
> Dear Shar,
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> Thank you for your kind words. Shaken by the beast is most accurate.
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> I am humbled and in awe of the struggle you're so valiantly fighting. Your courage is very inspirational. Someone who is battling chronic depression and living a life MUST be good at multi-tasking!
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> The question occurs to me if there is any correlation in how people deal with the depression and the genesis/longevity/onset of the depression. For me, I firmly believe that life shouldn't be painful. Yes, painful events and painful times happen, but life itself shouldn't be painful. But that perspective was developed in four decades of life that was essentially depression-free. Had depression hit when I was a teen, I don't know what my perspective would be.
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> I'd be very curious as to others' thoughts on this.
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> For me, I think the later-in-life onset of depression was such an unacceptable assault, that fighting back was the only thing I knew to do. I have no intention of making peace with it. For me, it's like having a rabid beast in the house. Now, it must be noted that I'm saying this on the healing side of my second depressive episode (much briefer than the first), but six weeks ago, when I couldn't string two coherent thoughts together, who knows what I would've said. I lost six weeks, literally lost six weeks of my life, like a blackout. I'm angry about that. I hope that I'm using the anger constructively because I can't undo the past, but learn from it. What were the early warning signs I missed? What can I do to increase my awareness of wellness and more vigilantly protect it?
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> Thinking about your situation, I'm stunned, recognizing the depth of strength you possess and you have my deepest admiration.
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> Again, thank you for the kind words and, I, too, am so very sorry that the beast has been with you for so very long.
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> Coral
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