Posted by Rzip on October 14, 2000, at 22:04:21
In reply to Fear - help, please, posted by coral on October 14, 2000, at 16:36:41
> You know I think you are right about dreading the worst. It seems to me that you have been through so much pain and distress as a result of your 1st depressive episode that your mind is programmed for the ominous side. Perhaps, if you try to rationalize it out, you will realize that this 2nd episode is systematically different from the 1st.
Be optimistic and good health,
RzipI'm on the healing side of my second depressive episode and find that as I feel better, I experience a ratcheting fear - almost as if it's a punishment or a price to pay for feeling better. This didn't happen the first episode, I think, because it was so extreme and I got better in tiny steps. This time, because I knew what to do, I really leapt back to a non-depressive state. It's like I have this Charles Dickens' stern school marm with a hickory stick who whips me when I've felt good. The fear breeds renewed anxiety. What are others' experiences with this? Any help?
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