Posted by coral on October 14, 2000, at 16:36:41
I'm on the healing side of my second depressive episode and find that as I feel better, I experience a ratcheting fear - almost as if it's a punishment or a price to pay for feeling better. This didn't happen the first episode, I think, because it was so extreme and I got better in tiny steps. This time, because I knew what to do, I really leapt back to a non-depressive state. It's like I have this Charles Dickens' stern school marm with a hickory stick who whips me when I've felt good. The fear breeds renewed anxiety. What are others' experiences with this? Any help?
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