Posted by Christina on October 14, 2000, at 20:40:25
Hi, I'm new to this board, and I'm looking for a few answers regarding my illness.
I've been suffering from clinical depression and borderline personality disorder for as long as I can remember, but I have only been diagnosed and under treatment for the past few years.
As a result, I always think that I am so different from others... like my life is out of control and I'm just a big loser.
Whereas most people I know have notable accomplishments, to me, I am a success if I can get out of bed in the morning. I try to keep my level of responsibility low so I don't continually fail... but I still have problems performing at work and in maintaining friendships.
My medication has stopped the suicidal thoughts and despondency of depression, but I still feel so mediocre.
And everything is a struggle.. even simple things like preparing a meal or finishing a project at work.
Does it ever get any better?
poster:Christina
thread:1067
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