Posted by Jean-F on September 7, 2000, at 23:18:27
In reply to Re: When is it time to give up?, posted by allisonm on September 6, 2000, at 20:52:39
> I have suffered from major depression for years, I think. Was diagnosed almost 3 years ago. Some bad things happened not long after diagnosis and only now am I able to see that I am pretty much through the grief and ready to tackle the original issues.
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> Also it has taken this long to find meds that brought me to where I'm not constantly thinking about giving up this life. Last winter I debated every day whether to quit my meds and psychotherapy. I was so sick of everything and was ready to accept the consequences, thinking death would be a good thing because I honestly saw no point in my existence. I held on. In April my meds were changed around again and I'm finally feeling better.
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> It can happen for you too, Lexie. It may not be perfect or permanent, and crappy things in life still will happen, but relief is attainable.
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> Tonight coming out of the grocery store I marveled at how beautiful the sky was. The setting sun turned the whispy streaks of cirrus clouds pink, the sky was deep blue and the moon was rising with a ring around it. The air was cool and it felt like fall. A few months ago I would not have seen or felt any of this. I am glad I stuck around.
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> Take care and best wishes.
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> AllisonWell i guess these meds do help if you want to help yourself. they give you something subtle but to work on. I seem to have more energy since i stopped the antipsychotics, probably because I was doing like the baseball player who plays with the bigger bat before going to the bat for real. I guess you could call the antipsychotics a sort of super therapy that implicates a lot of risks like zombiness and parkinsonian symptoms. Ok so now he lowered my dose and i can think quicker without being unreal. It's neat.
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