Posted by dari on September 6, 2000, at 8:34:54
In reply to When is it time to give up?, posted by Lexie on September 3, 2000, at 19:12:51
Dear Lexie:
I apologize in advance for my _eyboard, not hard to figure out which _ey is wor_ing, huh? I, too have bipolar and it is not an easy road to tread. HOWEVER... after two years and 18 different meds and 12 hospitalizations, I've finally found the right one (neurontin) and I feel great and have felt this way for about 4-5 months. I had two suicide attempts during this time and to say that effects of these attempts on my family has been devestating on my family would be an understatement of the highest order. For me, it has only been by finding an acceptance of this illness and never underestimating its power. I may have it, but I will never again allow it to have me. Great therapy and a good psychopharmacist are _ey for me. I've recently started doing the things I love again. I read voraciously, have read just about everything there is to read about the illness so I'm armed with _nowlege, and I've passed it on to family and some friends so some of their fears are abated, too. The scariest part of this illness for me is not _nowing what to expect next... just li_e anything else.
Please don't give up, the balance you see_ is just around the corner.
fondly, dari
> I have been diagnosed with depression and bipolar II and am currently takening topamax and Desipermine. Topamax helped with the moods until last week when I had a very hypomanic episode with my heart pounding, only sleeping a few hours a night and a very irratable mood. I haven't been feeling very well. My doctor had to give me Ambien for sleep. I attempted suicide last year. Sometimes I don't know when it is all going to end. I am not sure if maybe I am just caught up in all of this and just "addicted" to all the of the doctors visits and therapists visits. I wonder if it is time to just stop all the medication and therapy. I feel like I am on a rollar coaster I can't get off of. These are painful feelings to admit to,does anyone else feel this way? Please Help. Lexie
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