Posted by med_empowered on August 15, 2008, at 12:55:42
so I met someone online and arranged a quick lunch date, knowing/hoping it wouldn't lead to anything major. I lied my a$$ off!
Q: What do you do?
a: I go to school at XXX university (I'm actually taking online tech classes...its the only thing I can handle post-breakdown).
Q: Where do you live?
a: apt. w/ roommates (actually, I live at home with my parents...again, its considered the "best thing" for me to do post breakdown)On and on it went. The interaction was awkward. The dude was only 3 years or so older than me, but he had ALL HIS SH!T together. College grad, homeowner, etc. Thank god I'm reasonably attractive; otherwise, I doubt the thing would have even lasted 5 minutes.
So, I'm happy I actually quit being a recluse for a bit and got out there. I don't really know how I feel about my incessant lying, though; its like, I'm at a point where I'm (re)building my existence, so while I hate lying...I don't really see any alternative. Besides, I wasn't lying to get him into bed or anything; sad as it sounds (and yes, this is quite sad), I really just wanted to go on a date for the sake of honing my social skills.
All I can hope for now is that he doesn't talk to his friends about some awkward dude he went out on a date with who didn't seem to have very much going on. I also hope he didn't notice I was kind of sedated from the Klonopin I had to take before meeting up.Arrrrrgh! I don't know whether to start breaking stuff in frustration (because I'm crazy, getting older, and becoming a socially "undesirable" person) or applaud myself (for putting forth the initiative to "get out there," even if it involved lying my butt off).
What do you all think? Anyone have similar experiences?
Thanks in advance.
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