Posted by calamityjane on February 17, 2007, at 20:15:56
the priest who has recently taken over at the church I have a attended since birth, implied to me that there was something emotionally wrong with me when I had told him I never had the desire for a marriage, but that I planned my pregnancy. yeah - he's right - of course there is something emotionally wrong with me, but not because I wanted to be a mother!Why am I less deserving of motherhood, just because I choose not to take the risk necessary for marriage, hoping that it wont end in heartbreak? Too many people have let me down, and let my family down. I cant even trust my own flesh in blood at this point, How could I then trust someone who has not even known me 10 % as long as my family? Why would they feel any more obligated than true family does?
Why can't others accept the fact that not all people are comfortable with what society says they should do?
And as for God & my preist, why have I always been told that God has allowed us free will and the ability to create our own lives? Even if we are tehnically making a "decision" when we get married, God and society has already told us its "what we should do". Even if we think we decided on our own, God and man had a LOT more say than what we realize.
Anyway - just ranting. Got mad at my preist, thats what got me started here. lol. Funny, marriage and family had absolutely NOTHING to do with the problem I originally contacted him about. Lol.
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