Posted by alesta on April 17, 2006, at 13:37:53
my relationship is getting so bad that i actually became suicidal last week..just thoughts, no actions. i read an article about abusers and i feel *really get* that he is an abuser now.
if only they (abusers) wouldn't start out so da*n nice i never would've been in this situation...listen up, guys,...women *do not* want to be abused!! if we didn't like nice guys we wouldn't end up with these cretans..(sp?) i have to start keeping my heart locked up so i can get the hell out...i prayed to god not to let him take my soul (yes, it's that bad...)
i just want to be alone. i don't need a man. i am honestly (swear to god) utterly contented by myself. i think i may have learned this over time. besides, passion, even in a 'normal' relationship, drives me nuts, lol. and marriage is way overrated. if i can just get out of the place i'm in right now in one piece (emotionally). i know i could be happy...at least, i think so.
thanks for listening, you out there:)
amy
poster:alesta
thread:634151
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