Posted by Susan47 on September 19, 2005, at 21:21:47
In reply to Re: Relationship with Myself .. May Trigger, Sex » Susan47, posted by fairywings on September 17, 2005, at 23:32:53
I think my ex- might be just sick enough to go along with that. Actually, we do not have a great relationship, we have a pretty lousy one, yet still better than many exes. It would be difficult to have a good relationship with S. He's not the type of person that very many people really want to spend a lot of time with, in that way.. including me. He actually did me a lot of psychological harm. I actually did what I thought I was smart enough NOT to do, I married a guy pretty much like my father is/was. And the weird thing is that he was pretty much well-disguised until you scratched the surface. I never gave myself that necessary time. Heavy sigh. In any case, thanks for the thought, wish it were true, haven't had sex since then and even though he tried I'm off limits, it was nice to know I could do it, but I just don't.. care enough that he turns my crank, unless I'm extremely H, which is as I was when that happened. Even then though I had to work hard to make myself feel good, loving feelings towards him. I managed to do it, because I had to and he was the safest person I know.
But it's horrible when the kids find out, which ours did even though we thought we were being secretive. That might be one of the reasons I'm not able to feel turned on anymore to him. Maybe in another six months I'll be with a new man. I hope.
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