Posted by bobbie on June 1, 2005, at 21:04:36
I havent been here in a very long time and much has happened in my life.
My PTSD and fibromyalgia has limited my ADLs and now the flashbacks from the abuse I have survived in my life make it dangerous for me to drive to the store or to sleep over than 4 or 5 hours at a time...
I dont want to be around people anymore because when I start flashing people think that Im ignoring them and Im rude or retarded.I still am taking Lexapro but I think it isnt doing me much good and the sweats and the nighttime drooling are both a PITA.
I have pretty much decided to drop the shrink I hve been seeeing for the past five years because she almost let me die twice when I had pneumonia and refused to prescribe me anything even when she knew I could tolerate having anyone else touch me even in a theraputic setting without having physical and emoitional symptoms. The last time I saw her in her office I told her I wasnt sure I would be back. She asked why is that. I told her that I had trust issues with her that she would be so bent on her tough love theraputic practice that she would almost let me die from pneumonia. She didnt say anything. I dont look at her much these days because part of me wants to reach up and slap her eogistical face.
This is too long... I just need a safe place to land....
Thanks. bobbie
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