Posted by AdaGrace on May 16, 2005, at 9:44:26
In reply to family rejection, posted by cockeyed on May 15, 2005, at 23:21:58
First of all, I gotta say.....You have a very articulate way of getting your point out. I am immediately drawn to your humor and sarcasm, of course because it is so much like mine. You made me laugh out loud reading it, yet I empathized and understood exactly what you are going through.
I often feel as if I have lost the control of my children, especially my youngest daughter, to my stepmother, due in part to my inability to be a good mother. Hmmm. It started out with my work. I was gone all the time. My children were never allowed to be in the hands of anyone other than her. (Hubby is so involved with this problem as well) Then my mother died, and this woman took over the role of BOTH grandmothers. There was no evening out the scale. My mother was grounded, practical, nurturing. This woman is controlling, overindulgent, overprotective, over the top, and well frankly, down right bizzarre in a down-home hillbilly sort of way. And me, well I'm just working my *ss off trying to make a living to support everyone in my house including my husband/farmer wanna be, oh, yeah, and I'm a drunk, emotionally unstable, and OHHHHH I smoke cigarettes. I am not worthy of controlling my children, why hell, I can't even control myself. So, there you have it, I feel used as well. I'm good enough to bring home a paycheck that pays for the roof over their heads, keep a beautiful yard, provide grunt work services for any extended family member who needs it, but I'm not good enough to dole out discipline, or actually expect them to turn a tap on their own. Perhaps my main problem is that these people are just so different from where I come from.
I understand being the "odd" one out. I used to hide my rebelious tendencies and tried to walk the straight and narrow. Eventually it just sprung forth like a gyser. Now I am totally out of control.
Since I am not worthy of being in control of my children totally, could you baby-sit this Friday, I would really like to go out to the local bar smoke, get drunk, and find a guy to do. In other words, go out wh*ring. After all, anyone who smokes and drinks and goes to bars is nothing but a barfly or barwh*re as they say.Okay the baby-sitting thing was just a joke.
Nice to meet you, nice to vent back, and Geeze I hope I didn't offend you.......
AdaGrace
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