Posted by alesta on May 8, 2005, at 17:24:04
and i feel pretty panicky/shaky. i called him 2 days ago for the first time since i had left him. i had left him a message about coming to get my stuff. well, he called back today..i said "hello, how are you." and he goes "i'm fine, how about your f$%$$ing self?" he then just starts yelling about me and f this and f that for like 5 minutes..why didn't i f-ing call and where the f was i..(we had broken up..i don't know why he was saying that..but it's typical of him..) finally i pulled the phone away from my ear while he yelled..then he would alternate to a softness in his voice that didn't help matters either. i don't feel too good after the whole exchange..although i guess i should've expected it.
i have been putting off getting my stuff..i'm dreading it. i don't know quite how i'm going to handle it. i feel panicky right now. and just..not good..oh, it is not going to be fun going over there. god, i've lived a life of fear my whole life..if i ever find peace it would be amazing...thanks for listening..just needed to talk about it.:)
amy
poster:alesta
thread:495280
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