Posted by octopusprime on April 10, 2005, at 23:55:10
a query for the posters out there:
i know i have been away from this site for a while. been busy, you know, finding the love of my life, etc etc
so here's the question:
i met him at the end of october. we will be married on the first of july. i'm 26 years old and well medicated.
is he really the love of my life? or is he just the manifestation of my cyclothymia (mild bipolar) illness? i've told him all about it. he's scared out of his pants of me going off my meds. we figure i will have to if i am going to have his baby (and i want to, a few years down the road)
i'm happy. i'm happy. this is weird. is it an illusion? or is this what love feels like? i've been in love before, but this is the first time i ever thought about getting married. is it a big mistake? i get the feeling that many people with depression or mental illness tend to accelerate relationships - is that part of the package? how do i sort out what is real and what i am projecting?
we talk. we talk a lot. and i am 100% sure i am doing the right thing by marrying him. and maybe that's the scariest part. the lack of doubt. maybe if i was "normal" i would be freaking out about marrying somebody i've known for less than a year. but it feels right ... like the right thing to do ...
any thoughts?
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thread:482636
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