Posted by sunny10 on February 23, 2005, at 11:53:06
In reply to Re: Toph and Susan47, posted by Susan47 on February 23, 2005, at 11:13:30
just the one that was a response to AG on writing..
you read it, dear!!!
Good heavens, if you want THAT story, it would take forever to write...Plus the tone will have changed- the true angst that it all was at the time is gone now.
I truly meant it when I told AdaGrace that I had gotten to a point that I could remember parts with fondness, take responsibility for all of the wrong in it that was me, and beat down the ghosts of "bad girl, bad girl- you'll always be no good, you'll always be too stupid to deserve the air you breathe".... The flavor of it AS I went through it was completely different.
I doubt I could re-live it to write it for you if I tried.... and frankly, think it's better for ME if I don't...too scary to think I might start believing those things again...
Sometimes writing what you know is the secret to success; sometimes, though, it reopens doors better left closed. Yes, I got "over" it in therapy, but I feel the stories as I write them. Those feelings have already been dealt with- wouldn't want to have to deal with them all over again because I was dumb enough to resurrect them from the dead!!!!
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