Posted by tinydancer on October 3, 2004, at 10:13:38
I am so long lost in this sister crap that I can't see up from down anymore. I fear this post may be long but I hope someone can help me see this situation from a better perspective.
My sister is soon to be 21, which makes her 7 years younger than me. We had a very turbulent upbringing (gee, guess who caused most of the turbulence?) and my sister has lived through a lot of chaos in regards to me. (Running away, getting arrested, going to jail, going to rehab and so on.)
It took many many years before we could really communicate in a normal way and trust each other at all. Once we do get together, we have a great time and laugh and I feel so much love towards her.
We live in different countries, so obviously we don't see each other too much. She leads an extremely busy life as a music major at university, manages her boyfriend's band, is in a sorority and teaches and has a job on the side. Typical overachiever...(LOL)
A few weeks back I had kind of a breakdown. My parents said that they needed me to stop telling them about my problems. They couldn't cope anymore and needed space. Needless to say for my psychotic, splitting self this was truly devestating. It felt unforgivable at the time. Then when I went to my sister, I guess she felt overwhelmed by what I told her and just hung up on me saying she couldn't deal with this. We haven't talked for awhile, but finally she wrote me an email saying she needed time and space to absorb "this". She said she just wants me to be happy, ect but it was hard for her to know what to do.
I think I understand and I want to forgive her, but I'm just so hurt by the abandonment from her and my parents. It's like when I needed them most they dumped me. Any thoughts or advice?
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