Posted by rjlockhart37 on July 28, 2017, at 0:18:49
i've been doing indepth thinking about many things, i'm not just saying or boasting but i'm trying to change again from my previous state, the way i talk to people, the things i do even by myself, it has to change, i've realized how long ago when i posted crazy night posts about mumble jumble making a big deal of 1 timy things, i'm glad i'm not him anymore....it took alot of things to change, including some trauma experiences, but after time it's like i saw the big picture of situation ... why people didnt like me, what i was doing and telling people, it made sense to me after thinking about it. I've learned seeing false ways of viewing life, rerembering how used to think....
so from now on, it's a start to learn to change every night go to sleep and believe you'll be a better/new person everyday. In a way i still have nostalgia of previous times, the early periods during 2004 and 2005, seems like i'm still there and need to go to college, which i'm in college right now, but the time was planned to go to a university, feels like im suppost to go from there.... feels like this timeline is a paradox that was not suppost to happen, like the younger years when i was happy. But this point, i've improved and see things understand why people didnt like me, and considered me strange.
i've got to rid this old ways of doing things, and grow, i encourage you that you can become a new and better person everyday, not like diffrent person as in someone else, but a version of you will be improved and better. You just have a deep, strong emotion that you will become better, and you never let go of it, like plant it down in your memories to never forget it. I need to follow that too, because i have tendancy to just coast through things....think of this is just a thought
that's all, hope the best will happen, don't expect the best to happen all the time, because it does not sometiems, be ready for negetivity to grow
thank you for reading
r
everything can change like that, and all these years go by so fast, but nothing lasts forever
poster:rjlockhart37
thread:1094235
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20161002/msgs/1094235.html