Posted by stargazer2 on December 22, 2013, at 14:27:48
In reply to Re: Avoidant Attachement Disorder, posted by baseball55 on December 19, 2013, at 20:27:48
Hi Baseball,
What has helped in therapy? I feel like I have no connections to people...I want relationships but don't know how to really have one. I'm afraid of having a boyfriend but very lonely as I was in my 20 year marriage. I'm so depressed and have been for more than 30 years but realize it may be related to the inability to bond. I never had kids to show me how it works. I just know my friendships and relationships are very superficial and I don't know how to show emotions or feelings. I'm just so afraid of living and seek out ways to end it since I don't think anything will change as I have been in this situation for so long and mostly on meds with lots of useless therapy.
I'm the one that came up with attachment disorder as one else did but it makes sense as my family is cold and indifferent and I don't remember any feelings of being loved or cherished as a child, then my sister dies at 16 and I was blamed for being "mean" to her.
I'm so confused about what I "have" but treatnebt with meds for depression hasn't worked and I'm not sure therapy can work as so much depends on the therapist and obviously no one has helped me get beyond the way I am emotionally an island with
no real relationships in my life. My divorce really put me in a very alone place but the feelings that should have existed in my marriage didn't so my husband walked after 20 years.I'm not sure is I should bother anymore...I'm old and tired.
Star
poster:stargazer2
thread:1056440
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20131211/msgs/1056788.html