Posted by Lamdage22 on October 18, 2011, at 18:38:44
In reply to Re: in a very dark place.. please someone talk with me » Lamdage22, posted by sigismund on October 18, 2011, at 8:59:16
Yeah you are right. I apologized to her and said goodbye. I really did some sh*t to her.. alright. One more thing added to the grieving list.
> What kind of emotions do brothel visits help suppress?
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> Something to do with your family?Yes.. this very deep loneliness back from childhood. And it hasn't really vanished since. The fact how much my parents hurt me and that i simply don't have parents.. never had.
The hatred against my father is going in my dreams again. I woke up punching "my father" and in waking reality i hit some stuff through my room lol.
Whatever i may invite a gal for dinner just for the heck of it.. she was very nice to me. I have a feeling she might like that..
Haven't had a girl for ages and I'm longing for it. At least spending time with women.. you know real women, not phantasy women.
My therapist says i should wait until i am more balanced and whatever but i don't care about waiting. I have been waiting for too long for this reason. Who knows if i will ever be "balanced"..
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