Posted by wittgensteinz on May 1, 2011, at 2:33:46
In reply to How do you speak your own voice?, posted by annabelle smith on April 30, 2011, at 18:32:02
A suicide gesture has a great potential to make things a lot, lot worse.
1. It will likely destroy the trust between you and your therapist. He may even decide to stop treating you and refer your to an inpatient facility.
2. Rather than drawing people closer, letting them understand, they will more likely distance themselves because sui is such a difficult topic for most people to comprehend.
Is it about proving the seriousness of your illness to yourself? Mental illness is taboo and it's hard (or simply not an option) to disclose it to those who (should) care about us. I can understand the desire to be validated and understood. But trust me, it will only hurt people and yourself - it won't make things better. You also have to be prepared to lose your therapist if you decide to make such a gesture - many therapists just can't work under that pressure and with that break-down in trust.
Why don't you just talk to him? Why aren't words enough? Or write it down to give to him - don't actually do it - find a way to articulate it without taking such a drastic step.
Meds can help with cyclical/obsessive thoughts - they can aid your toolkit - help dissipate the negativity. Seroquel, for example, can be good in aiding sleep, and calming you down.
Witti
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