Posted by Tabitha on March 30, 2011, at 1:41:23
In reply to When is the end » Tabitha, posted by Dinah on March 27, 2011, at 15:08:39
Just plain makes me sad to realize I wouldn't at all be eager to go to sessions and spend the money if it weren't for the shared history and the investment up to this point.
I did think of one thing that she provided over the years that I really valued. It just gave me a place to dump my craziness every week (and weekends with phone sessions) whereas without that, I'd have likely been spewing a lot of it to friends, partners, coworkers, family, strangers, which might have damaged those relationships and at the least caused me embarrassment. That function no longer feels so necessary to me, apart from my doubts about whether the spewing itself creates and feeds the desperation.
It seems like it comes down to not wanting to lose that shared history and that repository of life-witnessing she's become. It's like I'll lose track of part of myself by stopping and risking being forgotten.
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