Posted by mmealltalk on March 22, 2011, at 19:07:26
I've been in treatment almost my entire life, but never have I felt as anxious and scared and terrified and overwhelmed as I do now. I know that we are talking about some pretty scary stuff and that I am so overwhelmed with my feelings that I feel like I am having a panic attack in her office. Not talking would do no good as avoidance isnt necessarily the way to go, but I just feel dreadful in my therapists office, and then continue to feel horrible at home. I do have tools that have helped calm me down in the past, and meds to help the anxiety, but still I feel so awful. Its the craziest thing, right now I could totally picture myself hospitalizing myself because this is leaving me so nonfunctioning, but its not like I feel that I am a danger to myself or others, Im just scared to death. And I dont want to be in a hospital, and Id still have to be released to discuss the same stuff anyway so it wouldnt help, it just feels that intense. I was wondering how other people dealt when therapy became so difficult to handle. I know there are more intense and less intense times in my treatment, but I sort of feel alone with this as I dont know people who really understand what I am saying and feeling alone on top of all this makes matters worse. Someone please respond, even if u dont know what I mean, I want to know someone is out there,
Mel
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