Posted by pegasus on March 10, 2011, at 13:56:31
In reply to terrible session, posted by pegasus on March 9, 2011, at 12:46:56
I sent an email to my T, explaining that I had told him about the SI before. Here's what he wrote back:
"It must have hurt quite a lot for me to respond as I did. I am so sorry for that. I did remember that you told me about it, but I remembered after you walked out, and I've been troubled by it since I saw you. Your bringing up that part of your history took me so much by surprise and I blew how I handled it. I failed you in a breathtaking way."
Pretty cool, huh? I'll admit that I let the email sit there for a couple of hours after I first noticed it, because I was afraid of what it might contain. This was perfect, though.
And then, cynic that I am, I wonder how genuine it is. He *knows* that's what I'd need him to write, because we've been over and over how afraid I am of his power to hurt me in ways like this.
But what do I want? It sounds from the heart, and at least it's in his own words, and I didn't have to pull it out of him, or battle any defensiveness first. I think I should just take it at face value.
- P
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