Posted by violette on June 26, 2010, at 1:26:54
I don't remember ever feeling this inner peace before....I just want to bask in my post-therapy bliss...it's the only time lately I don't feel any guilt about not doing what I'm 'supposed' to be doing...and let myself just enjoy it.
Following an intense session a few weeks ago, I expressed my desire for physical contact with T. He said two adults engaged in physical contact turns sexual. So it was a helpful way to say no. At the end of that that session, something just clicked in my brain and I felt blissful..Since then I also noticed that after session, this feeling is staying with me longer than the first time.
It seems I'm starting to internalize Ts caring, love, acceptance, and positive regard he continuously offers to me; reinforcing it over and over in both direct and subtle ways.
I really like how David Wallin explains the process:http://www.davidjwallin.com/PDF/DavidWallin/AttachmentInPsychotherapy.pdf
Maybe I will start a routine after therapy each week-listen to music, take a long bath with candles, pamper myself...allow myself to read a book. Start caring for myself the way T cares for me.
I feel so content and at peace with myself. I want to share these feelings with him next week.
This is absolutely beautiful.
poster:violette
thread:952225
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